What I Think About: Being an Introvert

According to Myers-Briggs, my personality is defined by the letters INFJ.

Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging

This specific combination of characteristics means I am very introspective. I spend more time in my head than I do talking to others or interacting in a social setting. I am often overwhelmed with my emotions, and I constantly sort through  ranking them by severity.

Last semester, I really pushed myself to be extroverted. I was constantly going out with friends, drinking, going to student organizational meetings, and opinionated in the class room. I stressed myself and stretched myself out to the point where I was always depressed when alone.

I think pushing myself was good for me to experience these things that I always avoided out of discomfort. I became comfortable in this realm, but I was unhappy.

I have a busy schedule, now. I go to class, have a job, homework, girlfriend, Youtube channel, blog, book writing, art and comic making, etc. I socialize with my roommate and the people at school, but most of my communication is online through social media since I don’t really have the time to meet up in person.

I feel a little ashamed of it because these people have only known me for me my extroverted self. I reinvented myself after high school, and now they are experiencing the real me. Granted, I am still different than high school. It is a healthy balance.

I am trying to keep my head up and do what I want and what I believe in, or rather I am trying to find the time to do all these things and keep my relationships up.

I like being an introvert, though. I like the quiet time alone or with a few people. I enjoy doing my own thing. I am very opinionated even if I don’t voice it often.

October 27, 2014

Man, I really need to get back into the writing groove. Sorry, I’ve been neglecting you readers and myself. It is that point in the semester where everything you have procrastinated actually has to start being done, and it’s very frightening. Seriously, I have three research papers due three weeks from now, and I haven’t started!

Regardless, things have been going pretty well on my end. If you saw my last post consisting of my comic that I drew for art class, you’ll be happy to hear that I have decided to continue with my comics in a separate collection deemed by my girlfriend “Adventures of a Lazy Dumpster”.

My Youtube channel is something I am very proud of thus far. I have some really great interviews, and more are on the way! I worry sometimes about my gender videos because I tend to struggle with my identification openly, and there is a lot of hate in the trans community. Some trans individuals feel you have to look or be a certain way in order to be transgender. I am not cisgender, I don’t identify with a gender right now, I am masculine, but if I want to have long hair or keep some feminine qualities then that doesn’t make me less of a person or gender. Like, can’t we all just be mature individuals and love each other? Why do you care so much about me? Worry about yourself, damn.

In other news, my book is slowly trucking along. It’s so hard to find time to write with all my homework and whatnot. Is this what adulthood is like?

I am moving to New Orleans next year, hopefully. I am in the process of transferring to the University of New Orleans to live with my girlfriend. Pretty cool stuff, I’d say. I am looking forward to branching out in the art community there.

I am obsessed with 30 Rock. Liz Lemon understands me.

I think that’s all the events in my life. Nothing too interesting. Peace.

Head Above Water

pressure

I can’t breathe

everything everything everything

all the time never stops

sometimes I can’t keep it at bay

letting my thoughts go astray

where’s the life vest?

where’s my saving grace?

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Geographic Representation in LGBTQ+ Media?

kennedylejeune:

A great article written by my friend, Joshua Mesman.

Originally posted on Joshua Mesman:

queer media

Last Friday, I went to my parents’ house – surprisingly – finding it empty. There was still laundry to do, and my parents were to be back later. Going to my parents’ house, gives me the time to watch cable, and if anything, more than likely I pick something gay I can’t get on Netflix. I was happily surprised to have landed on MTV just in time for Laverne Cox Presents: “The T-Word.”

There were various young trans men and trans women represented at first. There was a New Yorker, a Californian, another Californian…. The trend that I’ve been sensing outside of the T-Word, itself, and in general was starting to agitate me. But wait, NEW ORLEANS.  I gasped, “OMG I think I’ve seen this woman in the Quarter before, too!” The woman was black and trans and spoke out about the racism and transphobia she and other trans women…

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